New Year 2004

Although it is very, very late, I want to wish you all a very "Happy New Year 2004". May joy and prosperity be ours this year and years ahead.

I entered this year 2004 in a very, very sad situation. I am sorry I can't tell you what it is, but I can't pretend that I am allright experiencing this. For now, I may look fine; but, to be honest, I am scattered inside. It hurts so much that I cry and cry and cry. I've never cried this much before.

Fortunately, I could go to my mother-in-law (Endra's mother). I could tell her what the situation was and how I felt about it. I was relieved after telling her what was going on during these past few months. Finally, there is someone I can talk to. How lucky I am to have her as my mother-in-law.

Now, I try not to think much about the problem. I'd rather focus on my work. Maybe it is a kind of "self-defense", you know. I don't want to get hurt, I've done my time (from Roxette, right?). Ah, maybe it is written in the stars. Maybe it is the road we have to travel. I try hard to understand him (Does he try hard to understand me?). I (We?) realize that the key to this problem is on his will.

Can I be tough? Can we finish our journey together till the end of time? Only time will tell.